Unfortunately for a good 4 years of my teenage life I was succumbed to one of the most manipulative people I have ever met. After I finally got her out of my life, for the most part, I fell into a terrible relationship with someone who was just as bad, if not worse. I don't know what it was about me, but something must have screamed, "take advantage of me," all over my face! The worst part was that I knew these people were this way, and yet I continued to keep them in my life...they practically were my life. You could say I was fearful of hurting feelings...or maybe I just didn't care enough about myself to say anything. Once I finally got the nerve, I let it all out. It's difficult to explain when you feel like you are being manipulated, but we all likely know how it feels. I don't know what makes a person that way, I just know that it is ONE characteristic that I do NOT appreciate or like. It's always a sticky situation getting involved with people like that.
They try to make you feel inferior to them, and say things in comparison to things a 3 year old would say to her best friend. "If you don't play barbies with ME, then I'm not your friend anymore!" WTH!!?? I have never EVER been able to understand people like this. They just want to always be in control and center of attention, always worried about who likes who more, and what's in it for them. YUCK! Where do these people come from!?!?!? You constantly feel like you're walking on eggshells...and you start to feel unsure of yourself...that's scary!
Unfortunately, although I have dealt with this quite a bit in my short little life, I have come crashing into it again. I don't know how to deal with it still! If I am contrary, then they get upset, if I am "ok" with it, then I get upset..because NO ONE likes to be walked on. I feel like I want to close a door that has already been cracked open, but..if I do, who knows what might happen!?! I am really trying to be true to myself here, but I feel that I am being treated with disrespect, and why am I afraid to say something!!??? It's ridiculous. Eggshells, I tell ya...STINKIN EGGSHELLS!! If I say something will I close the door on other relationships? It isn't even that I don't love this person...I actually really do care about them A LOT! I just don't know. I just need a little more respect. It's soo awkward though.(insert me huffing and puffing)
Hoping to figure out the best way to handle this.
They try to make you feel inferior to them, and say things in comparison to things a 3 year old would say to her best friend. "If you don't play barbies with ME, then I'm not your friend anymore!" WTH!!?? I have never EVER been able to understand people like this. They just want to always be in control and center of attention, always worried about who likes who more, and what's in it for them. YUCK! Where do these people come from!?!?!? You constantly feel like you're walking on eggshells...and you start to feel unsure of yourself...that's scary!
Unfortunately, although I have dealt with this quite a bit in my short little life, I have come crashing into it again. I don't know how to deal with it still! If I am contrary, then they get upset, if I am "ok" with it, then I get upset..because NO ONE likes to be walked on. I feel like I want to close a door that has already been cracked open, but..if I do, who knows what might happen!?! I am really trying to be true to myself here, but I feel that I am being treated with disrespect, and why am I afraid to say something!!??? It's ridiculous. Eggshells, I tell ya...STINKIN EGGSHELLS!! If I say something will I close the door on other relationships? It isn't even that I don't love this person...I actually really do care about them A LOT! I just don't know. I just need a little more respect. It's soo awkward though.(insert me huffing and puffing)
Hoping to figure out the best way to handle this.
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