Difference

Go back to the days when we would receive a new toy for birthdays, Christmas's, or for just any old reason....

Remember how excited we would get??  Remember playing with that toy and taking it everywhere, and telling your friends about it, maybe sleeping with it at your bedside, or maybe it was the first thing you thought about when you woke up and before you went to bed you were sure to play with it????  I remember a few new things that I was that way with.  My first tamagotchi (virtual pet, for those who didn't have one), my first stereo/CD player, and I'm sure there were a few others.  I remember feeling a little bit like my "status" changed once I had those things...it was like people knew how cool I was, even if they didn't actually know I had a new CD player at home. haha..  After time passed, I realized it was no big deal.  I forgot about those things and moved on to bigger better stuff.  The things that I was so excited about and obsessed with starting being misused, and eventually thrown away.  How could something I "loved" so much become trash?  How could I just not care about it anymore?  Well, that's a question I will never really understand the answer to..because....it just happens.  

The Difference.....

Making new friends.  I know trusting new people is tough.  I really have a difficult time with it.  I feel extremely vulnerable, and don't like to feel exposed.  Sometimes it clicks, sometimes it doesn't.  A new friend, or any friend to me is like a new toy.  I get excited.  I want to get to know them, I want them to get to know me. I want to spend time with them.  When I invest time, emotions, money, conversation, and other aspects of my life into another person, I do it because I care about them.  I really try to choose my friends wisely and carefully.  I don't give my time, the thing I value most, to people I don't truly care for.  I think that we all know how precious time is, we can't make more of it, we can't slow it down or speed it up, we can't get it back...it is always going.  Although life can be busy, I try not to let my friends ever feel like they were once the "new toy"...I want them to always feel like the "new toy."  I wonder about people who treat others like they do "new things" after only a week, a month, a year.  It's scary to think that you can give them your time, just to realize that you were just another "new toy."....What is the difference??