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I am not always sure of myself or the things I say.  I can never really be sure of what I think about certain things that I do...let alone what other people think.  The latter is strangely more difficult to deal with, sometimes.  Trying to find the place where caring what other people think about me and the person that they "think" I am.  I don't think there is anyone who knows the whole of me, but God.  I want to ONLY care about what He thinks of me.  I am so thankful that He knows me, but there are times that I feel so imperfect (I AM) that I wonder why God loves me.  I am no criminal or anything, but I always have room for improvement.  I want my life to be a portrait of  love.  Since God is love, I want to be a reflection of Him.  It's an every day struggle.  Trying to keep Him in the forefront of my mind isn't always easy.  
I have met people that come off as continually being "in the spirit"...is that real?  I mean, how do they do it?  Are they pretending?  I sure hope not.  Life can become so distracting sometimes.  I want to be able to "link" God to EVERYTHING that I do, think, say, and act.  All the things that I am involved with I want Him at the center.  What is the ultimate goal in life anyway??  Meeting my Savior is my goal...now to make and keep that goal as my number one priority is my plan.  Pray with me, because I am not always sure.

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