My first trimester was worse in some ways this time. I threw up a lot more, but I was also able to eat more, and I didn't lose any weight that I'm aware of....I wasn't big on scaling myself. The exhaustion was more intense since I had a toddler to keep up with though. My fears were there,but only because I kept having random spotting for a few weeks. I knew deep down though that God had a plan for our family.
My first visit with Robin was December 7. (She came to our house for everything, I thought that was so amazing.). I was around 10 weeks at the time, according to my menses. My fundal height at that appointment was 12 cm, so we kind of thought maybe I was a week or two ahead, not only because of that, but my cycle had been irregular since May. I also assumed it could be because it was my second pregnancy.
I think once I got into the second trimester I was totally expecting to feel on cloud 9 physically, but it didn't happen. I continued with nausea and vomiting for quite some time, it wasn't constant but it sure was annoying. The exhaustion seemed to be getting worse as well. I really just wanted to feel like myself again so I could enjoy the journey, and most of all enjoy my time with my growing toddler.
At each appointment, I would be measuring anywhere from 2-5 weeks bigger than I should have been, but like I said, we didn't think anything of it really because my dating was potentially off.
We decided not to have any ultrasounds, mainly because we wanted the gender to be a surprise, so without that there wasn't any other way to know. Did I mention how happy and thankful I am that I never had an ultrasound? That alone was a huge blessing.
My anxiety about balancing life with a newborn was overwhelming for most of my second trimester. I struggled with it a lot and experienced some really low points. I kept praying about it, and trying to change the way I was feeling, but it never really happened. I did climb out of the "depression" though, only by the grace of God, He picked me up and carried me the whole way through. This is one of the reasons I am so grateful I didn't have an ultrasound. Had I known we were having twins, I most likely would have felt worse physically and emotionally. I also would have had to have a hospital birth, which was so far from my wishes it's incredible.
Third trimester rolled around and we weren't sure if baby would turn head down or not. Robin told me that by 32-34 weeks she would like to be sure baby was head down, or she would send me for ultrasound. Thankfully I had been seeing my chiropractor, who is Webster certified, for the past month and I really believe that is what helped encouraged the change in positioning. So, I "lucked" out again by not having to get that ultrasound. Baby was head down, but posterior by 32 weeks. Being posterior was the reason we thought I looked so huge.
As many times as Marc and I joked about twins, we never actually thought it could happen. I tell ya, I got big quick!! End of April people were already questioning when I was due. When I would say June or July, strangers would give me a look of horror and disbelief😆. I can laugh about it now, but at the time, some people were downright offensive. I can't even count how many times random strangers would stop me and tell me how huge I was, it was pretty discouraging and I got to a point where I was almost embarrassed to leave the house. I would hear people talking about me in the grocery store, at church, and just about everywhere we went. I never once imagined feeling ashamed of my body as a pregnant mother, but wow, words can really get to you.
The month of June arrived and I knew it would be our month. I have to say, I was in denial that my belly wasn't just an accessory. I had to remind myself that our baby would be coming very soon. Since I wasn't mentally or emotionally prepared for the change, it was something I started really praying about and trying to release fears about diligently. I had so many reservations and when people asked me if I was ready, I would say, my body was tired and physically ready, but otherwise no. Thankfully I was able to feel some excitement just a couple days before their birthday, so that really helped with the birth process. For me, being mentally ready has been so key in both births. As much as I hate to admit it, the excitement came a lot from knowing my mom's 50th birthday was just a few days away. I have always wanted to do something special on her birthday, like get married or something big like that...and this was a pretty awesome chance. We dedicated Gideon to the Lord on her birthday 2 years ago. It fell perfectly on a Saturday that year and Gideon had just turned one, so we drove down to Florida to have my grandpa (mom's dad) do the dedication, it was beyond special to me.❤️
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My first visit with Robin was December 7. (She came to our house for everything, I thought that was so amazing.). I was around 10 weeks at the time, according to my menses. My fundal height at that appointment was 12 cm, so we kind of thought maybe I was a week or two ahead, not only because of that, but my cycle had been irregular since May. I also assumed it could be because it was my second pregnancy.
I think once I got into the second trimester I was totally expecting to feel on cloud 9 physically, but it didn't happen. I continued with nausea and vomiting for quite some time, it wasn't constant but it sure was annoying. The exhaustion seemed to be getting worse as well. I really just wanted to feel like myself again so I could enjoy the journey, and most of all enjoy my time with my growing toddler.
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| February 26,2016 |
At each appointment, I would be measuring anywhere from 2-5 weeks bigger than I should have been, but like I said, we didn't think anything of it really because my dating was potentially off.
We decided not to have any ultrasounds, mainly because we wanted the gender to be a surprise, so without that there wasn't any other way to know. Did I mention how happy and thankful I am that I never had an ultrasound? That alone was a huge blessing.
My anxiety about balancing life with a newborn was overwhelming for most of my second trimester. I struggled with it a lot and experienced some really low points. I kept praying about it, and trying to change the way I was feeling, but it never really happened. I did climb out of the "depression" though, only by the grace of God, He picked me up and carried me the whole way through. This is one of the reasons I am so grateful I didn't have an ultrasound. Had I known we were having twins, I most likely would have felt worse physically and emotionally. I also would have had to have a hospital birth, which was so far from my wishes it's incredible.
Third trimester rolled around and we weren't sure if baby would turn head down or not. Robin told me that by 32-34 weeks she would like to be sure baby was head down, or she would send me for ultrasound. Thankfully I had been seeing my chiropractor, who is Webster certified, for the past month and I really believe that is what helped encouraged the change in positioning. So, I "lucked" out again by not having to get that ultrasound. Baby was head down, but posterior by 32 weeks. Being posterior was the reason we thought I looked so huge.
As many times as Marc and I joked about twins, we never actually thought it could happen. I tell ya, I got big quick!! End of April people were already questioning when I was due. When I would say June or July, strangers would give me a look of horror and disbelief😆. I can laugh about it now, but at the time, some people were downright offensive. I can't even count how many times random strangers would stop me and tell me how huge I was, it was pretty discouraging and I got to a point where I was almost embarrassed to leave the house. I would hear people talking about me in the grocery store, at church, and just about everywhere we went. I never once imagined feeling ashamed of my body as a pregnant mother, but wow, words can really get to you.
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| May 3, 2016 |
The month of June arrived and I knew it would be our month. I have to say, I was in denial that my belly wasn't just an accessory. I had to remind myself that our baby would be coming very soon. Since I wasn't mentally or emotionally prepared for the change, it was something I started really praying about and trying to release fears about diligently. I had so many reservations and when people asked me if I was ready, I would say, my body was tired and physically ready, but otherwise no. Thankfully I was able to feel some excitement just a couple days before their birthday, so that really helped with the birth process. For me, being mentally ready has been so key in both births. As much as I hate to admit it, the excitement came a lot from knowing my mom's 50th birthday was just a few days away. I have always wanted to do something special on her birthday, like get married or something big like that...and this was a pretty awesome chance. We dedicated Gideon to the Lord on her birthday 2 years ago. It fell perfectly on a Saturday that year and Gideon had just turned one, so we drove down to Florida to have my grandpa (mom's dad) do the dedication, it was beyond special to me.❤️
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| June 22, 2016 |
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June 22, 2016 |
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