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Feeling Defeated

Being a good parent is not for the faint of heart.  How do I communicate my wishes to my 16 month old strong willed son?  How do I gently discipline him?  Do I discipline him, or is he too little to even understand.  How can I show him that just because I walk around the corner without him doesn't mean I have vanished into thin air leaving him all alone?  Why can't I just sit around and play with him all day long without any distractions?  Well, I could...but there is always cleaning, cooking, laundry, mowing, grocery shopping, and so many other responsibilities to be done.  I know he is only little for this short time, so how do I find balance in spending all my time focused on his needs while taking care of everything else?  I want him to trust me.  I want him to be safe and happy and healthy.  I know he is learning and growing so quickly right now, and I want to make the right choices in how I respond to his emotions & actions.

I have been feeling defeated lately as a mom.  I wish there were classes to prepare us for becoming a parent.  It is the most difficult and rewarding privilege and there are absolutely no "right" instructions to tell us how it is done.  How is that even possible?  😳

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